11 Dec Command Your Day
I sat on my bed with my head down like a scolded child. I was having a moment. My daughter came in and asked if I was okay? It took all of me to hold back my tears as I stuttered, yes. She gave me a hug and left. I did not realize how long I stayed in this position until my daughter returned to kiss me good night because it was her bedtime. I forced a smile because of her obedience. Then I finally fell asleep.
My eyes opened and I thanked the Lord for waking me up. I got out of bed looked in the mirror and had one thought on my mind for the day. I will be happy! My smile was bigger than the one I forced the night before. My cheeks were at their highest point on my face as I gave different poses proclaiming to be happy no matter what. As I purposely got ready for work I danced and chanted.
Gospel music played in the background as I gathered my work bag and headed for the door. I limped as l went down the stairs because my knee was hurting. I am not sure what happened during the night to cause this, but I smiled and carried on. Then as I walked past the dining room table I noticed two dollar bills. I immediately thought what does Armanni need from the store now? Then, as I walked closer to the table I noticed that the bills were on top of a piece of paper. Examining the paper, I seen some writing. It said “thanks for the phone. Love you get a pen!” This time as I fought back the tears I had so much joy I almost began to shot.
This may seem insignificant to you. Let me share the backdrop of why my daughter’s small gesture met the world to me. If you read this from the beginning, you know that I had a rough night. But when I woke up to a new day I was determined to be happy. That’s only the surface. As I drove home yesterday, I shared with my daughter a recent experience at a store. I told her that I was in the store and I saw an ink pen that I wanted. The pen was two dollars and I thought it was too much to spend for one pen, so I did not get it. I said to her “I really wish I had bought that pen because I really want it now.” My daughter knows how much I love ink pens. She replied you should have. I agreed with her.
Despite yesterday, I woke up to a new day, and affirmed that I would be happy. Even with a sore knee that I did not understand, I realized how blessed I was. My daughter’s unselfishness and concern for me took away any sadness that I had the night before. I recently posted that “I go so hard in the paint for my child. But sometimes, just sometimes I need someone to go hard for me.” After reflecting on this post I had an answer, God does. Then I read a quote by Joel Osteen which summed it up best:
“God has a thousand ways to turn any situation around that you’ve never even thought of. Just because you don’t see a way doesn’t mean God doesn’t have a way. Our attitude should be, “God, my life is in Your hands. You can get me to where I’m supposed to be.”
God knows every little thing about you. He knows when you are happy and when you are sad. When you feel alone he sends comfort. Speak positive words over your life and stand on the promises of God. Command your day and make sure that your actions are in line with your determination.